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Monday, November 13, 2017

Wood Fire

 

Pungent smoke hangs heavy,
caught tight inside the bitter cold.
Wood burned red hot,
loses its blistered heat.
Sweet thoughts of times gone by,
are held inside the fragrant scent of burning pine.

Suspended in the ringlets,
locked frozen in the winter harshness,
crackling logs bring recollections of autumn days
and summer eves.
The scents and senses of childhood
joys and friendships lost.

A wisp of wind spirals

the perfume of melancholy memories away.

Friday, October 27, 2017

3am thoughts




Eep: With every sun comes a new day. A new beginning. A hope that things will be better today than they were yesterday. But not for me. The Croods

I have seen the pain and frustration that plays out from having unmet expectations, not just in marriage, but in all relationships. It’s a deadly venom that flows to the heart and wreaks havoc in relationships. link

When we discard a person’s accumulated possessions, we are throwing out the record of a life. The soft thump of the garbage bags on the landing tells of a small, soft death. Is it necessary? Yes. But it’s an erasure that’s irrevocable. Like the ash that surrounds bodies at Pompeii, these objects preserve the shape of a life — even after the living being is gone. link


“All her knowledge is gone now. Everything she ever learned, or heard, or saw. Her particular way of looking at Hamlet or daisies or thinking about love, all her private intricate thoughts, her inconsequential secret musings – they’re gone too. I heard this expression once: Each time someone dies, a library burns. I’m watching it burn right to the ground.”
― Jandy Nelson, The Sky Is Everywhere




What a wee little part of a person's life are his acts and his words! His real life is lead in his head, and is known to none but himself. Mark Twain

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Nautilus -- Newport Beach

One year ago:


I have always been a person that gets wrapped up in dates. Especially sad ones. With the 20th anniversary of my sister's death in July, I asked my husband to plan something special, so we would have an adventure to look forward to. 

 I even told him to get us a hotel down in Newport Beach and we will have a bonfire on Huntington Beach with kids. Something I have always wanted to do. A beach bonfire! Then I suggested he find out how much it costs to go whale watching. I am not quite sure when it is a good time to go whale watching, end of July was the time I needed to go.


The entire family together in Newport Beach Fun Zone on our second night.

Keep in mind, I told him this in April...May...June...In the beginning of July, I ask again. if he had the plans all set. NOTHING!

Yes, I took this photo of a pod of dolphins swimming right along side out boat. Isn't it amazing!


The next day, he tried and couldn't find anything rooms close to the beach, AT ALL! And whale watching tickets were way too expensive.

I spent an hour of internet searching a found two rooms for us. The two couple would share one room, and Natalie and her friend would room with the husband and me.

Next, I found a City Pass that gave us a super deal (relatively speaking) on Newport Beach whale watching for eight people. Since we planning on barbecuing on the beach the night before, we could spend a bit more on the boating part of the adventure.

Walking around Balboa Island at sunset.

We were all set. The kids had the time off and were ready to join us. Barbecue on the beach one night. Whale watching the next day. Then, another relaxing day at the beach. But, the unbelievable happened!

Sewage spill in L.A. grows to 2.4 million gallons, prompting bans on swimming in Seal Beach and Long Beach link

All of the beaches in Los Angeles County from Santa Monica southward were closed due to a ginormous sewage spill. The spill did not affect the beaches in Orange County with disgusting grossness. 

Nope. Just every single human being from Los Angeles County came down to our beaches. Summertime in July! With all of there LA County beach quarantined by raw sewage, the masses descended. Shoulder to shoulder, the beaches were too packed for our Barbecue. 

There wasn't even room to lay down a towel. Okay, that is not quite true. If you could find a parking spot with in ten miles of the beach, you could slither into a spot on the sand, somehow. With three different vehicles, we all ended up in separate spots. Not the grand family adventure I had hoped for. 

Ferry ride across to Balboa Peninsula from Balboa Island

Eventually, we just headed to the hotel and had dinner at the Famous Dave's that was just down the block and across the major thoroughfare from our rooms. Back to the rooms, and up early to go out and see the whales.


This was the first time we had gone out on the water on anything other than the Balboa Ferry since we have been in California. Even with the sea sick pill the husband bought, by the end of our journey, the rocking back and forth was a bit too much for my head and stomach.

I honestly did not expect to see much on our trip on the ocean. Amazingly, We not only saw the dolphins pictured above, but sea lions, as well. Three whales. And of two of the whales swan around our boat at the same time. It was like they were playing with us. 

THREE WHALES! On a whale watching trip. Imagine that.


In this photo, you can see the tail of one whale in the foreground, In the background, you can see the other whale blowing water into the air in the upper right and side.

On the way back in, we saw saw more sea lions on the docks. All in all, it was an amazing abundance of marine life in our short trip out on the Pacific Ocean.


from my facebook page
After almost five years, we finally made it out onto the ocean. Our weekend at the beach included a whale watching tour in which we actually saw a giant blue whale, two humpback whales swimming side by side, a pod of dolphins and a few friendly sea lions that came right up to the boat. "Whale watching with the Opatz Squad." (borrowed from Thomas) #family #commondolphin #humpbackwhale #bluewhale


The family right before the whale watching trip began. You can tell because I'm still standing!


These photos were taken by a drone operated by the Nautilus Crew. We arrived very early to pier and thus, were able to be at the front of the line for boarding the boat. This allowed us to get the entire front half of the railing, and the seating area in the front. Tessa and Adam are sitting right behind him. 

You can see me just peering out around the edge of the boat and waving. By this point the sea sickness was pretty strong. Thank goodness I had a place to sit and lean back.  Husband Greg is standing in the red shirt.  Thomas and Zach both in blue and holding on to the railing. Natalie is the very very front person in the boat, and her friend Preston is right behind her.


The whale watching crew sold us the photos taken by the drone. So worth the money, because we could have never gotten any photos like the ones they were able to take. They also included ticket for another whale watching trip . So if we take that trip, it will pay for the price of the photos!

 One of the two whales circling our boat!

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Happier Tomorrow

Three years before the crash of the stock market, back when the roaring Twenties were still roaring, Shirlee Mae Tait was born. Along with her little sister, Patricia, and Mom and Dad, the young family spent every Saturday afternoon seeing all of the new Hollywood movies.
They caused quite the scandal when the entire family went to see “Gone with the Wind,” and its R rated ending. Her father truly did not "Give a damn" what others thought. Her most prized possession, growing up, was a Shirley Temple doll given to her by her Aunt Dot.
Shirlee's young childhood was spent in a house with her grandmother, aunt, mother and father and sister. She loved being surrounded by family in Grandma Connolly’s house.
When World War Two struck, seventeen year old Shirlee dropped out of high school to marry her high school sweetheart, Steven Lindquist, before he deployed overseas. Shirlee traveled with her mother to North Carolina for an intimate ceremony held on July 22nd, 1943.
A crew member of the bomber named ‘Queen of Hearts’, Steve was killed during the Battle of Normandy, when his plane crash landed at New Romney, Kent, after a mission. This was July 17th, 1944. Six days before her first wedding anniversary, Shirlee became a war widow at just eighteen.
As time passed, and the war raged on, Shirlee returned to finish high school, graduating from New Trier High School in Winnetka, IL. She was introduced to a brother of a high school friend, who was stationed at Great Lakes Naval Station, north of Chicago. On this ‘double date’ she met the brother’s friend, Gregory Gibbons.

A romance blossomed.
Living directly across the street from the local fire department, on V-E Day, she listened to the sirens ring for 24 hours straight. Again, on V-J Day, the sirens rang, as the country celebrated the end of the war.
Still deployed overseas, it would be weeks and weeks before Shirlee received news that Greg was coming home. The message, which was still a secret, was written underneath the stamp, so no one would see it. Sssshhh!
During this time, Shirlee went to St Mary’s College in Kansas City, where she earned her associate's degree in art design. In early June 1948, a third sister joined the Tait family. Shirlee and Pat had a brand new baby sister, Pamela. Days later, on June 12th, Shirlee and Greg were married in Evanston, IL, surrounded by family and friends.
As the saying goes, ‘All was right with the world.’
Shirlee and Greg stayed in Illinois for Greg to go to school. First for Greg’s bachelor’s degree and then his doctor of optometry degree. Shirlee worked as a cashier at a local shop and prepared their home for their first baby. Sewing tiny clothes and painting old furniture into new.
Having already learned how hard life can be, the lessons kept coming. In March 1949, their first born son, perfect in every way, just did not take that very first breath. They named him Joseph, after the Patron Saint of Families.
Then, they packed away their hopes and dreams, and waited for a happier tomorrow.
And those happier days came with one, two, three healthy children born in two and a half years. “What one didn’t think of, the other ones did,” Shirlee said many times over. One of her favorite stories was when the neighbor called over at ten o’clock at night and said, “Shirlee, do you know your children are out swinging in the back yard?” Out the window, they had climbed.
The first boy, girl, boy were followed by a boy and then another boy. Years of boy scouts and girl scouts, church school, Christian Mothers and American Legion Auxiliary followed. After two more girls joined the family, they slowly transitioned from scouts to sports.
Shirlee became one of Cambridge High School’s most loyal fans, a constant figure at Friday night football games during the autumn evenings and high up in the bleachers on every Tuesday and Friday night during basketball season. A broken car window during baseball season was just the price she was willing to pay to show her support for the Jackets baseball team.
As the children grew, she had more time for her own interests, including machine knitting. What began with sweaters and vests for children and grandchildren, turned into her own knitting shop, the ‘Cambridge Spinning Wheel’. That grew into the distributorship for Toyota knitting machines for the entire Midwest.
'This land is your land, this land is my land, from California to the New York Island, from the Redwood Forest, to the Gulf stream waters…'

A lifetime love of camping, saw Shirlee and Greg visit each of the fifty states, starting first in a fold up tent trailer, up-sizing to the ‘Tin Coop’ travel trailer and finally to the full size Rambler motor home to travel the ribbon of highways.
Shirlee fulfilled a lifetime dream when she flew with her two sisters, Pat and Pam, to visit the emerald isles of Ireland.

And, of course, she thoroughly loved family get togethers in Montana, bonfire sing-a-longs at Osakis, family reunions at Grand Rapids, dinners at Red Lobsters and so many, many more.

In Shirlee’s young life, she overcame devastating tragedies. The loss of her youngest daughter, Molly along with Molly’s daughter, Jenna Elizabeth in 1996, was a particularly difficult loss to overcome. Following soon after were the deaths of both her sister, Pat, and lifelong best friend, Todd. The two ladies who had held her up during the tragedies in her youth.

Much of the last years of her life have reflected the painful losses of her lifetime. To truly appreciate what Shirlee has accomplished, enjoyed and blessed the world with, reflect upon her long loving marriage, ending only when Greg passed on June 12th, 2009, their 61st anniversary.
Mother of eight, six of her children are spread out across the globe, embracing the lives she gave them. Living, loving and sharing their own lives with children and grandchildren of their own.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Radiator Springs Racers -- June 15th

Reminiscing: June 15, 2012


 My three children and I camped in the plaza in front of Disney's California Adventure the night before the Re-Opening. Getting in line at 9:00pm, we slept on the cement pavers, watched the blimp fly over head and cheered with crowd for "Good Morning America".

After eleven hours, we watched the backs of people's heads for the Grand Opening Ceremony. Buena Vista Street was packed to capacity, and we were in the middle of it. We saw the morning fireworks and heard Mickey Mouse.

Once the official opening was complete, the crowd surged toward Cars Land. We held back and picked up fast passes for "Radiator Springs Racers". A 9:20am-10:20am time...not bad.

Once the official opening was complete, the crowd surged toward Cars Land. We held back and picked up fast passes for "Radiator Springs Racers". A 9:20am-10:20am time...not bad.

A quick ride on Mater's Junkyard Jamboree, which had no line, at all, and then then a fly through Luigi's Flying Tires, who's line was about fifteen minutes, and it was time for the Racers.

We got in the Fast Pass line and the ride went down...

With Cars Land packed to the rims, we headed back out to explore Buena Vista Street. Some photos with Mickey, Chip and Dale and a bag filled with secret 'treasures' from the Imagination Studio (Opening Day Pins and such) and we headed back to Cars Land, again.

The Fast Past line wove out past Stanley's Statue into the main stretch of Route 66 toward the Cozy Cones. Getting into the end of the line, we waited for about ten minutes before the Racer's ride went down, once again.

With reluctance, we decided the "Radiator Springs Racers" would be experienced on another day. Our DCA opening day fast passes  for the Racers will be unique souvenirs for our Disney scrap book.

So, you could say we waited over 20 hours to NOT ride the new "Radiator Springs Racers" on June 15, 2012. 

Monday, June 12, 2017

Back Patio

My father lived to be 82. Though I was born when he was 36, and obviously our relationship changed over time, the thoughts and feelings I had at seven feel the same as ones I recall through a lifetime of memories.
Warm summer evenings spent sitting out on the back patio, him in a webbed lounge chair and me in a matching lawn chair. Just the two of us watching the sunset over the back slough. At seven and then seventeen and twenty-seven and on.
So much time spent in companionable silence, watching the trees grow. Just listening to the birds sing.
There were, of course, many conversations intermixed. Their significance lost in the passing of the years.
Along with days filled with crisp spicy scent of fall leaves raked into large piles. Piles destined to be smashed apart, again. Cool late autumn days filled high with fresh cuts of sweet smelling wood and sweat from a hard day’s work.
Crisp cold winter nights came early. The wind bit hard against our cheeks. Our noses, bright red, smelled of woolen mittens, wet, in the stark white and black world.
The fresh clean fragrance of a wood fire burning still brings an ache to my heart. Memories of shimmering rainbow colored lights dancing on Christmas Eves. Over sized boots trudging footprints through pristine snow. Diamond edged fields sparkle white on sunlit January afternoons.
Wood smoke swirled high, dancing with crisp oak leaves.
Early mornings on a mirror smooth lake, the haze still clutching tiny spears into its unbroken surface. A lonely loon's wail echoes out across the reeds. The occasional plop of the lure landing just short of the lily pads shocks the otherwise serene surroundings.
Again, welcome silence fills the air. Companionship comfortable enough to let the world enjoy the morning blossoming into day, in peaceful reflection.
I spent more nights than I can count, sitting with my father on quiet summer evenings, or autumn afternoons filled with ducks and geese serenading us into the dusk. On chilling winter nights, we sat surrounded by banks of snow and ice, as more white flakes fell softly around us. Melting on cheeks, as fleeting as the moments of our lives.
Though, not always alone on the patio out back, the constant was the two of us, together.
My papa and I.
And on his very last day. I held his hand as he took his very last breath. This man who welcomed me into this world. Held me when I cried. Bandaged childhood scrapes. Cheered successes. Danced life's dance with me. He would not look down in his last moments on this earth and see an empty room. I waved him on in his farewell.
It will always be him and I on the patio, together, watching our sunset over the slough.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

#fosterkittens

This coming Monday, we will bring home our 27th #fosterkitten since last April. This time, however, the 'kitten' will be a 9 year old blind cat that needs a home while the shelter is being remodeled. He will be here somewhere between 6 and 12 weeks. 


Feb 9 update: We found out today that our nine year old blind foster cat, Newman, is being designated as Rescue Only. 

Shelter Pets Designated “RESCUE ONLY”

Sadly, we are just not in a position to take in a rescue cat with all of the financial costs that go with his medical issues. I am truly sad that we are unable to step and help this cat that so desperately is in need of care. 🐱
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We take in these animals because they are small, sick, or just in need of love and affection while they are waiting to be adopted. But, the truth is we get so much more love and peace and comforting, then we could ever give back. 





'Kevin' is no longer Home Alone. New foster kitten is Home for the Holidays. #fosterkitten #needslove #christmaskitten



One sick little #fosterkitten comes home after bringing in two wild and crazy #fosterkittens ready for adoption. She needs to go back twice a day for 5 days for treatments. Has been isolation for days and needs love.




The answer is two, Alex. There are two kittens climbing in the branches of the tree. #fosterkittens


Just two little kittens this time, not five. Both orphans from different mothers. Now, they will be siblings. #fosterkittens



#fosterkitten surrender day, always many tears included with this endeavor #kittenlove



Foster kitten Micheal Phelps has only a few more days before he goes up for adoption with his four brothers and sisters. We have had these kittens longer than most because they started so tiny. Will miss them.






Just enough time to dye...lunchtime hair salon. Tessa, Natalie and cats.  

Five new bottle babies. Brought home new #fosterkittens less than three weeks old. Timing seemed right so we named them #Rio #Simone #Phelps #Bolt and #DiegoDaleyMikulak or as Tessa calls him, #Gerald.




Sleeping kittens. Last few moments before they go back to be adopted. #fosterkittens #darcy #bridget #ranchocucamongaanimalshelter





Saying goodbye to foster kittens today. They started as scared hissing little beings with blotchy fur, covered in fleas, who wouldn't come near people. Now, they sit in your lap and purr, purr, purr.



Because there are always newborn kittens in need of fostering. Two new babies came home when we dropped the others off.



One of two new foster kittens.


Foster kitten check up day #catsinabox #fosterkittens #fivelittlekitties